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ooops ment hope u did well
hope u do well
r ur exams finish
Nah, I've got one this afternoon and one Monday afternoon. From there-forth, I'm a free woman!! ;) x.
It's not always easy Mindy_Luvs_Mork. No doubt some weeks get really hard. Some are way worse than others. Of course you don't need me to tell you this :) A lot of us know the feeling. I know you're going to do well though. It's easy to see how much you're putting in to grow more and to change things for the better and I think that's something really worth being thankful for. In fact, you can thank yourself for it too. :)
What did you and your best mate get up to? Fun reunion?
Hey Mindy_Luvs_Mork, I haven't seen you around here for a while. I hope everything is going good for you now. :)
Glad I could help. :)
Yeah I think that's all part of it, right - things going down a bit and getting back up again? Life would be pretty boring if it was always 100% perfect. You've clearly built the strategies for dealing with the tough times though.
That's great about your mate. Such a good way of putting it. Making new memories.
Sorry I haven't been on here for ages btw! I've been so sidetracked but it's good to be back now. :)
I love it when I receive comments from you DJ Cheese Platter as you never fail to lighten up my day :)
I am trying really hard at the moment, especially considering I had been doing so well for an extended period of time, I'm really determined to pick things up again and move forward in my life.
As for my mate, we had an awesome time on the weekend just chilling, sharing happy moments and making new memories that in the future I'm sure we'll revisit and share together once again.
Keep it up! :)
I used to love cooking class. I had a damn good jam-filled doughnut over the weekend and it reminded me of the ones I used to make. What made you enjoy it?
I've been spending time with close friends too lately. It's great! I sometimes like just sitting around and watching movies with them. :)
Sorry I haven't replied in forever. :) How's the state of mind going now?
That's really good that the teacher is supportive! Having a good teacher is such a hugely defining factor for how much you want to learn I think.
Simple pleasures are often the best ones. That's what Thank Tank is all about! :)
Thanks DJ Cheese Platter :)
I'm not the most competent cook in the world so I tended to find the class daunting during first term, though now the teacher is being really supportive and encouraging and overall this has made each lesson the more enjoyable.
It's great to have time out to chill with friends - one of life's simple pleasures I guess :)
I love hearing that! Handling tough situations well. Hard times can't always be avoided so being able to deal with them in the best way is quite a handy skill. Good on you. :)
This is sounding more and more like a turn-around week for you.
YES! hahaha SHOW ME THE MONEY! Are you going to buy something or save it?
ps. Welcome back. :)
That sounds like a good way of operating. It always amazes me how much we are able to make things better for ourselves when we really try. It doesn't always have to rely upon someone else to fix things for us.
Cars are so expensive but that's what having the freedom of P's is all about. How's your driving skills so far?
Yeah it's nice talking again. Don't forget that when this turnaround week keeps going the way it is we'll always happily hear what's going on in your Thank Tank posts. :)
Hey DJ cheese Platter,
This week is definitely my turn around week, I just have to keep up a positive attitude and sound mind and I know I will surely be able to move forward with my life.
As for the cha-ching, I don't have anything in mind for the short term, hopefully a car in the near future as I get my P's next year.
Hope to hear from you soon.
PS. It's good to be back :)
Mindy_Luvs_Mork I just wanted you to know that i still LOVE this poem so SO much. It puts life into perspective and is just... so emotional and expressive.
I was wondering if you would mind if i included it into a play of mine? I was thinking of it being read as a V.O at the end...?
Thank you for expressing your love for this poem as I really feel this was one of my better pieces of writing.
I've never been asked to have my writing included in someone else's work, so I'm quite honoured. I'm happy to let you use my writing (maybe you could provide a link to this page to let others know that I wrote it though, if you don't mind).
I hope this finds you well and best of luck for the future :)
Yes! Bring on 2013! It's been good to me so far. Plenty more to look forward to.
Keep on smiling! :) Sounds like you being independent and productive. x
Well done in the Choir. To be able to sing is so good for your soul i think.
You are so right! I think I am dependent on True blood to be able to switch off my brain for a little while and de-stress!
I agree with you. Switching the brain off to de-stress is so rejuvenating. Some days I can't imagine how I would see to the other end of the day without escaping reality to the world of the supernatural and suspense.
Sometimes, the world of Charmed is all I've got to rely on xx
Awesome post! What is your fav show??
My fav show at the moment is Charmed. I usually swing from sitcom to supernatural/drama every so often. At the moment, though, Charmed is getting me through the day.
A lil' fantasy to get me through reality ;) xx
The Game Masters Expo is being held in Melbourne at the moment and it displays over 125 interactive games from over the past few decades. It ranges from arcade games such as Pacman and Space Invaders to the more modern game experiences including Just Dance, Fruit Ninja and 3D playable experiences.
It's so cool, you should check it out!
Love holidays! Wish they didn't have to end...
I noticed you wont the Snap That theme of the week! haha good work. :)
What's Game Masters Expo?
That looks amazing!
To be completely honest guys, I don’t know what to say . . .
The comments you have all posted on the many entries I have submitted is quite overwhelming. I love reading what you all have to say and it touches my heart that many of you think I am a talented writer. I must tell you, you all hold a special place in my heart, and many times in life, YOU are the kind-hearted people that help me get through the long and often challenging day.
I don’t write for the profit of receiving warming comments and I don’t write because I wish to play on people’s emotions; I write but to get what I feel into perspective through words. I write for the love of it!
I hope I can gain your respect through my writing, and hopefully I have a positive affirmation or story to share with you all soon :)
i agree with abbeydawn 100 % !
the amount of times i have gone through this, the amount of times i have been subjected to this is ridiculous. you put experiences and emotions into words so easily and i praise you for your beautiful work. you are such a wonderful writer who gets my mind thinking and i experience emotions that i thought i lost. every word you wrote, every phrase triggered a memory in my mind and... thank you!
I hope you are doing ok. I gotta admit, you are one of my favourite writers. truly. Stay strong and i hope you get through the hard times!
wow, this puts alot in perspective, i love it!!! A+
1Derful_xxxx out <3
This is ironically the most beautiful poem I have ever read. I cannot find the right words to express how much I love this poem. The way you have put the fears of the night is amazing. I haven't expereinced such nights for a few years now, but I can remember, the nights of endless thoughts and fears, nightmares and endless tears that came no matter how hard I tried not to cry. This poem brings back so many memories, but for me, this poem allows me to look at my life now, which is so much better compared to a couple of years ago.
I don't think anyone could've ever put such experience in any better way. This poem is absolutely beautiful and so powerful. I really hope that things get better for you, and the tear of an endless night eventually goes away. Thank you so much for sharing this masterpiece with us, because it has given me another reason to love what I have now, and appreciate what I have been through. Hope you are doing well and writing this poem has helped you out. Thanks again for sharing this. xxxxxxx
Your story, it, it had me speechless. It was so beautifully written, so clearly and confidently expressed, so, so self-aware, so raw.
You have so much potential, you've described the hardships of your life, and yet you still come out at the end! You may not see it, but you are a strong person!
I hope you will see how strong and capable you are, because the world could do with more gifted, courageous and empathetic people just like yourself (: <3
Your third post inspired me to go look in the mirror and tell myself exactly that.
It seems the more time I spend with myself, the imperfections begin to become normal and then they become beautiful. Maybe not to others but to me anyway.
Ive also realised that the happier I am, the more beautiful I feel and seem to others.
So stay happy and maintain your beautiful perception of your beautiful self. You may have ugly days. But we all do. Except Miranda Kerr. She doesnt.
That third one is amazing. I think it's so important too. You must be really happy about discovering that.
I did get through the end of it, but maybe the reason for my imagining I was drowning, is the fact that I feel a place that is peaceful and still is too deep to recover?
I'm not too sure. I caught myself by surprise as well.
I can't wait for the Avengers to come out next week; it will be interesting that's for sure. I really enjoyed Captain America though, so he's my fav at the moment :)
I'm a bit behind the whole 'mature scene' so to speak. My friends have planned a date to go see the new movie, so I'm sure there will be more surprises at hand :P
We watched Captain America and The Hulk, to get ready for when The Avengers come out at the cinema's. We also watched the American Pie series which I had never seen before.
Yes . . . my innocence was totally thrown out the door that weekend :D
Sounds fun! I'm watching Avengers next week. Don't really know what to expect..
You'd never seen the American Pie movies? I kinda gave up after the third one. Is it safe to assume you're watching them to prepare for the new American Pie too?
That doesn't sound too good. Did you get through to the end of it?
I love doing movie marathons with friends! What did you guys watch?
Thanks for your comment abbeydawn; it really means a lot to me when someone praises a poem I have written. It makes me feel kind of special and aprreciated :)
The dream is reflecting depression, but more so as a whole, rather than one aspect of it. To me, the dream reflected the meaning that to overcome my depression, I can't keep running away from situations that I don't like. I need to stand up and face them, and ultimately, overcome my depression.
The hardest part of it all is taking my own advice . . . it's going to be hard, but I know I can get past this and move on.
You should feel good about your work because you can write and express do well :)
I know it can be very difficult to take your own advice, but with the right support and positive thinking, it can be done. So try to seek help from your close friends or family. It's better when you have moral support. But I believ you can make it, because you saw it yourself that you need to fight of your depression. So you are already a step ahead. We are always here to support you too so you are not alone. I'm sure you can make it, keep on writing and trying your best :) xxx
That is an amazing poem. Is your dream reflecting some sort of depression that you are facing? Which you are trying to ignore but deep down you know that something needs to be done about it? Sorry for the questions, but I'm just trying to understand this better :)
I'm glad that you see the message here, that you need to take a step to deal with the challenge you are facing. I hope you have all the support you need, and it's great that you shared this with us. It's an amazing poem. Good luck with everything and I hope things get better for you :)
Thanks everyone for your much needed support :)
A majority of the time I am praised for my writing, is usually when I write something that comes from the heart, which is more often than not when I'm experiencing hardship and facing uncertainty.
To be honest, I'm not doing too well at the present time, but your comments of acknowledgment and support is much appreciated.
I just want to make someone proud in this world, whether it be my parents, friends, teachers, work collegues . . . whomever; I just want to make someone proud.
I hope I will never let you guys down!
This is an absolute beauty. This poem reaches out to such a large number. I don't think there's even a word to describe the greatness of this poem. I am so amazed at the way you wrote it out so well and so beautifully. The emotion in this is so... I' don't even know what to say. THANK YOU so much for sharing this marvelous poem with us. Please never ever stop writing. I hope you are doing ok. :)
this is such a .... emtional and moving piece of work... it is soo... i loved reading it.. most teenagers can relate to this in some sort of way; i know that i can.
I love your writing style... it is truly beautiful!
Thank you sooo much for sharing this with us! I hope you keep writing, i know you will go far if you do :)
Heads up, girl :)
WOW! That is AMAZING! You put into words something i thought could never be expressed. Such a powerful expression of emotion.
Thank you so much baby_gone!
Those words mean the world to me, as I often wonder if I'm ever getting my message across. Hopefully I am.
I'm glad you feel you can connect to this poem. It's really hard when someone close to you is going through the exact same thing as you are, though you feel you can't overcome it together because you are two totally different people with different ways of handling the situation.
I will keep you updated with the situation of my close friend, and I hope you and your best friend can come out of this stronger people.
Oh my gooness! This poem.. it has put mine and my best friends.. past... 3 months or so into words! We both go through the exact same thing.. but we are total opposites...
Your poem.. it means so much to me, on so many levels! You are truly talented adn this poem has made my day!
Please, don't EVER stop writing!
I hope that you and your friend can move past whatever situation that you are talking about! We are all here to listen and help if you need any advice! :) take care!
Are you ok Mindy? Is it still lurking? Really good that you notice the early signs. You need to do something to get on top of it. Go to someone you really trust, its much more powerful than trying to deal withi t all on your own.
I wish talking about this stuff came easier to me, but it's kind of hard when you know there is legal requirements that come into it. Confidentiality is one thing, but the fact that my friend is significantly older than me (in her early twenties) she has a legal obligation.
I will continue to talk to her though, but ultimately the conversation is within my control until I step over the boundary.
Thanks for the comments and support seawave. I have since spoken to my friend explaining how I felt about the whole situation. It's kind of hard for me to open up nowadays, because I know the consequences that come with voicing my thoughts and actions. I wish it were easier, but I have lost my judgement of trust; something I'm sure to work on though. Thanks again :)
Its good that you can voice your thoughts so don't stop this. I sometimes find it hard to put my feelings into words so I hold it all inside going around and around in my head. I wish I could give out a bit more.
You obviously have some connection with this friend so keep talking but just let them know what is confidential. Maybe they are trying to help but they need to know that they need your ok before getting anyone else involved. It's your call. Its your life. But most importantly take care of yourself.
... this is beautifully written by the way. I know that it contains raw emotions but I really like your expression and clever poetic structure. Take care of yourself and stay strong.
I do know what you mean about making mistakes. But is this about putting trust in a friend who then wants to share your personal stuff with someone else. Please tell them how you feel. Perhaps you are not ready to take this step?
I totally agree with your assumption, DJ Cheese Platter, that the book is always most definitely better than the film.
With regards to dreams, I guess I’ve had a lot that don’t seem to make any sense to me whatsoever, but we all have those ‘out there’ dreams once in a while. On the other hand, I do believe dreams mean something, whether we are conscious of that fact or not. I usually like researching meanings for different situations in dreams, when the dream itself stands out for me.
Nothing of particular significance usually stands out in colour. This one time, I was drawing in class and the green crayon on the page was in colour. I couldn’t understand why; I don’t even own crayons. Another time, a work mate was wearing her uniform, and the orange shirt was in colour. There doesn’t seem to be any pattern or reliable source behind my colour coordination.
Though the black and white is rather strange, I don’t believe it’s linked to the anxiety. I’ve had dreams in black and white for a while now; a few years before I even showed any signs of anxiety.
I guess life is like a rollercoaster ride. It has its up, and its gut-wrenching lows. Today was a bad day . . . again. I tried avoiding that teacher I hid from the other day (it’s kinda hard when she teaches you). Perhaps tomorrow I will muster up the courage to talk to her.
I think a good place to start is by saying sorry.
That's a good idea. You can't always avoid people even if you want to. In that situation it seems like you're right in saying that you'll probably be best off just confronting the situation. Good luck! :)
I really feel for you, Mindy_Luvs_Mork. I can relate because I've had similar experiences too. I dont know if I have anxiety disorder but I can tell you that talking infront of the class or to any largish group sends my body out of control. I shake so much and my voice quivers. I feel so embarrassed and annoyed with myself at the same time. I sometime want the ground to swallow me up and I would like to run out of the room but worry that I will look even more pathetic. I now try to deal with it using breathing and music but its such an effort. Practicing my presentation at home alone until I know it off by heart seems to help but I know I can't keep doing this forever.
I wish you the best and hope things get better. Your dreams seem to be telling you that you need to get a little braver and courageous. Who knows, maybe we both do?
That's such a beautifully written story. You really have a great way of putting forward those words in a way that feels real. When I was reading this I was picturing my school grounds and classroom in my head. Do you ever do that when you read books? Maybe my imagination isn't quite what it used to be..
I also had a hard time adjusting to high school, particularly because primary school was a breeze and I was doing really well and I actually enjoyed it. Pretty much everything that could possibly change did. New friends, more workload, more people to compete with, more travel, etc.
I had anxiety at times but it was mostly my mood which got me down.
It was a few years until things got better for me. It wasn't an easy road by any means. I had to just face those difficult things one at a time.
I'm so fascinated by dreams. It's interesting that they're in black and white. I don't think I've ever had that before. Do you think it means something?
I think you're right about imagining things differently when reading words or hearing someone speak. I'm pretty sure that's why the book is always better than the film, as they say.
Do you believe that dreams always mean something or are they just random? I do find the black and white dreams interesting. Do you know what things usually stand out in colour? I guess the biggest question here really is do you think it's relevant to the anxiety stuff..?
I'm glad to hear that things are getting better for you. We can never really expect things to magically happen straight away. I think you might be right about avoiding the situation making things harder. Maybe it's just a matter of staying with things and getting involved in them little by little..
Thanks DJ Cheese Platter :) Your comment really means a lot to me.
I always picture and imagine what the scene looks like when Im told a story or reading a book. Everyone has a different perspective on things, and that's why it's interesting comparing views. You can tell a lot about a person by their imagination.
Im in Year Nine now, and things are slowly getting better. Still, I have struggles (like today) and I just have to push through them. Perhaps avoiding the situation didn't help me in the long term.
With regards to my black and white dreams, honestly, I haven't the slightest idea why they appear that way. Usually a particular item will stick out and be in colour, but the main scene is bland. I might have to look into that.