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how goes it mylifelikebee? have you managed to salvage friendship if not the relationship? hope elsewise things are good :)
Have you heard Eminem's new album yet?
i hope your girlfriend liked this :) and its good you told her what you couldn't say
This is really nice!!! Wow! It made me think of a happier and better time with me and my ex. I hope that writing this has made it easier for you to talk to her. xxx
I sometimes find it easier to write about my feelings for my boyfriend...might post the one I wrote just before we got together soon.
This is so relatable, you're story is truly an inspiration to everyone. It's great to see you're improving, you'll have bad days but dont forget there will always be someone somewhere looking out for you. This story gives me hope. good luck mylifebelikee
That's definitely true. Such good advice! I love seeing when stories like this inspire other people! Hope. That's such in important concept. Thanks for your comment. :)
Good luck indeed mylifebelikee. I have no doubt that you're already doing great things and that you're going to continue to do even better. You might not even know that you're inspiring people mylifebelikee but it seems like you really are.
for all of you guys on BITE BACK too :)
That's a lot of inspiration! :) What about them inspires you?
YES! I'm listening to Skrillex at the moment. Such a good way to make the day breeze past. What are you listening to?
I feel like you've totally summed up how I used to feel too. If I was able to write a bit better this could easily have been my story a few years ago. For me the depression was definitely a feeling of failure but I think it was more isolation. I got really sensitive when people were trying to joke around or even just ask me how I was like, "how are you?" would set me off for some reason. I don't know why. I understand what you're saying. Really clearly. You want people to understand without having to be let in too much. You want them to know enough to not bother you. I found it really hard to find a solution to that because what I wanted always changed so often. One minute I'd be annoyed at someone for getting too close and intrusive and then the next I'd be annoyed that they'd ignore me. haha it didn't make a lot of sense at the time for me! :$
I'm not sure what I can say to help here but if anything it's this... it really wasn't that long ago that I was in a very similar situation. It annoyed me so much to think that no one else understood and because of that I was alone. I want to tell you that you're not alone. There are lots of people who know what this feels like and who are getting through it or have gotten through it. It doesn't all just have to be people you know face to face. The other thing I want to tell you is that it does get better. I knooooowwww how dumb that sounds because I was told it a million times by other people who had gotten through their depression and I never ever believed that applied to me... hmm... so here I am telling you the same thing! haha. I hope you believe me though. Life is great for me right now and if I had've asked myself that question of what 5 years in the future would look like, I'd be completely wrong. And I'm really happy that that's the case. Good luck mylifebelikee. :)
ps. one more thing. Thankyou for sharing your story. That's the way these barriers are broken down. I'm sure a lot of people will read this and gain a better understanding too.
I agree with both of you about wanting people to go away and be closer at the same time and it's confusing for your friends too because while they want to help you they don't know how to most of the time because what you 'need' seems to change everyday. I guess it helps to set some sort of routine where you ensure you spend time with your friends and enjoy time with them while also taking plenty of time for yourself to come to terms with how you're feeling that day or week. I hope it's getting better mylifebelikee - take care!
You're welcome! :) haha you don't need to thank me for reading it. I like reading your Real Stories and comments too so I'm quite happy to. Sorry it's taken me ages to reply. You're totally right about respect. Sometimes you come across people who don't always show a lot of respect but I think it's just a matter of realising that if they're not going to change then to be able to just move on. Some people don't change so easily. Either way it sounds like we're both on the same page. No doubt lots of other people are too. It's really good to be able to talk about it. Thanks again for sharing. :)
First I just want to say thanks so much for reading this! I feel as if you have written everything I have written as well as everything everybody else on here has written. Absolutely amazing. And thanks also for being able to relate to it, my situation is complicated but at the heart of it we are all going through the same thing and we all feel the same things. I know that it gets better because for a little while i was better, but that went away again. And I'm not saying that it doesn't because it does, and anybody who reads this should believe it because I know i do too. You got it right on the ball, i want people to understand without them having to see the full picture. i want them to just acknowledge that im obviously going through something and i want them to respect it. All i would ever ask for is some respect. Respect for others, respect for what they wear, what they act like, how they look. Some self-respect. Some respect for other peoples feelings and not judge them before they get to REALLY know them. Thanks DJ C Platter :)
That's great about Live Below the Line! Has it already finished? How was it?
Good news about fixing that problem in person. I reckon it makes it a lot easier.
Yes! I made muffins recently. haha I've been cooking AND eating food. Woah!
That's awesome. It's good to see another side to your writing. I get the sense from your lyrics and from what you've said in the past that you're an Eminem fan too. This kinda reminds me of how in a lot of his albums he'll have a really different song to the rest that's usually a bit more emotional. This is great. Looking forward to reading more. :)
I've been there too mylifebelikee. It's hard to always understand how or why that happens. In my experience I think it's more important to try to move on from those kinds of questions and look more at asking what can make it better? I know from reading your more recent stories and lyrics over the last year or so that things have been getting a lot better over time. Is that still the case? Hope all is good with you. :)
Yeah that's bound to happen. Can't make every bad day just disappear in advance. It's good that things are starting to get better for you. Keep it up.
thank you for reading this :) yeahh things are starting to get better but there are obviously still those days where it really just doesnt seem like its gotten any better at all, but that's what i've got these little raps or whatever they could be called haha :)
I definitely wouldn't rule out the idea that people would pay for your creative work. You've got a talent! Who cares though? Even if they wouldn't pay for it you're still creating and I'm sure they'd still like it in some way. I hope you keep going with it.
How good is Till I Collapse?? I must've listened to that 1000 times. Did you ever hear the Green Lantern / 50 Cent remix of it? Pretty damn good.
mylifebelikee this is amazing!
I actually am going through a similar thing currently... but im the bad person in this situation... My boyfriend and i have only recently started dating and already i'm not sure if i just jumped into it too fast... i honestly am not that attatached and treat him more like a friend then anything else (which works for me... but its meant to be both sided)
I'm not sure what's going on in your life right now but just know we're all here to listen and help if we can
hey mylifebelikee, welcome back! I haven't seen any of your poetry / lyrics in a while. It's funny how a few other people are writing more stuff lately who haven't been around for a while too.
I don't know if what you've written here is about you specifically or not but let's just say that it is there's a few things I'd want to express in return. For a start it sucks how things don't always turn out the way we want. Yeah they often do but not always. They are the times that put us to the test the most. Maybe this relationship will work out just fine and maybe it won't but if I can suggest one thing it'd be that it's never a bad idea to find things to place your happiness in other than just one person or one thing. That goes for anyone really. It's more risky to bank your entire enjoyment of everything in one person. It's a lot of pressure for both of you and it makes it hard to maintain. Instead it's a safer bet to spread what makes you happy around across all different things. Maybe it's performing, music, or another creative outlet, or just other friends, etc, etc, whatever it is. It's different for everyone but I'd suggest you might wanna try looking for new ways of looking at the things you like doing already.
I hope all is going well for you. This relationship could be doing just fine also. There's been a few times in the past from my own experience where I've thought people were acting weird toward be which I interpreted as meaning something when really they weren't at all and I was just reading into it too much. I dunno. Obviously you'll have to work that out for yourself but it's something to think about I guess.
Aside from that, whether you're writing this about yourself or not, I hope you keep up your writing. It's really good. You've got a talent there and I know a lot of us like reading it each time you post something.
All the best. :)
No worries. I hope that helps in some way. :)
heyy DJ cheese platter :)
you know, i've never really thought of it like that. And i think that's exactly what I do, put all my eggs into one basket sort of speak. thank you heaps
i hope your getting better. I really think your an inspiration to evryone. i'm a christain as well i love God. I'm very happy that you found your faith. I will pray for you everynight. Get better and do what you want and love. don't do anything that makes you un happy
This is so great, I can relate to it so much. There's not one day where I don't think how grateful I am to have such an amazing best friend in my life. I'm so glad you have someone so strong and supportive in your life too. Hope everything is well :) xxx
You really are lucky to have a friend like that mylifebelikee. I've been lucky to have people in my life like that too. It's so comforting. :)
AWESOME! I think this is really awesome. Thanks so much for sharing.
totally agree. I hope to read some more of yours.
This is such a great story! I'm so glad that things have gotten better for you and you have found your faith. This is just another proof that no one should ever give up because things do get better :) i hope you continue to stay strong. Good luck with everything :) xxx
Thanks abbeydawn! :) nobody should give up, but you know what, that is sooo much easier said than done when you're in a state like that. all you can really say is try, try your hardest to believe that things will be better soon :) xxx
I love how this is written!
mylifebelikee, I so wish i could give you a shoulder to cry on.. You are so strong, and i truly mean this, dont contemplate cutting or harming yourself in anyway, because, even if they dont show it, people really care about you, i probably dont know you, but i care about you, and there is only a few ways to be happy. You need to find an expressive hobby, a way to show your pain in a creative way, like playing the piano, the guitar or drawing and painting, and im not saying that you have to, im just saying that you should give it a go, and if things dont work out, dont be afraid to see someone about your problems, most people arent there to listen to you speak about your problems and then go tell the whole world.. People are there to listen, take into account how you are feeling, evaluate and ask themselves what they can do to help you, and then they help you, and also, when you start to feel a little blue, do something that makes you happy or just even smile.. It triggers a chemical in your brain that releases feel-good endorphins and it makes you feel better, smile about having a family, smile about having friends, and even if you dont have these things, smile because your alive and your presence brings happiness into others lives even if you dont realize it. People truly care about you
From left_alone x
i think your kinda right left_alone :) i think i'm only able to get through the day because i know that i mean something to people, and if i were to go, they would have to go through the same kind of suffering that i'm going through. i don't want that, not at all. i know what people have problems of their own, and i want to be there for them because i know i can help them and i know that it will mean something to them that i am there for them, just like you are with me :) thank you soo much :) and i never thought that expressing myself through lyrics that i only come up with on the spot would be able to inspire other people, but im soo happy that it does! x
Its my pleasure mylifebelikee, and i know it must be hard for you, but you get through the day because deep down, you know you mean everything to the people around you, and i think you should believe that little voice in the back of your mind, telling you that you are amazing because you truly are, and that feeling deep down should resurface, because you are so strong! and no matter what, i'll be there for you, just hop onto bite back, write how you feel or what youre feeling and i will try to brighten your day or encourage your happiness, i admire you and your songs, you are an inspiration! X
left_alone, thank you soo much for reading this! you know, i honestly don't know how to get through the day sometimes, but I really do try to do things that express the way I feel, and my first thought was the lyrics I write. Every word has meaning and every 'rap' explains what I have been going through. thank you so much for the support though, its good to know that on days where its hard to find people who you know you can count on to be there for you and support you, you can come here :)
this is great! i love how you've put it together.. is it like a song?
no problem :)
haha thanks! means alot :)
Its so cool :)
yeah i wrote it kinda like a rap :)
My mum always makes me happy. She's so supportive. I really am lucky to have her.
So true! I feel the same way about my mum. :)
I love the line about 'I have to say "hi" twice to both your faces'!
Well written, mylifebelikee.
I real mix of the good and the bad. It's clear to read here the negative side of it all but there still is that underlying good of family and friends. Do you write lyrics a lot? It must be a good outlet.
I hope you don't take this the wrong way, I really don't want to come across as being preachy or whatever. I don't know exactly what you're going through so my opinion might not count for much but here goes anyway..
You've got a talent. No doubt about that. I read these lyrics and I can hear them in my head. They're powerful because they come across as being real and not watered down. You're not holding back and that sort of honesty shows. It comes out on the page in a raw way which I think is what makes it good.
What I want to put out there though is the question of the source of your words. Your inspiration. Clearly a lot of this comes from anger and obviously there's thousands of successful recording artists out there who have built their careers on using anger/violence as the source of what they're writing about. The trap that a lot of them fall into though is that one can take over the other. Either they get into one too many fights that go sour and it ends their career for whatever reason, or they just keep going on and on down that path of creativity based in anger without ever changing what they're putting out there. Some of the most talented lyricists I listen to who start out in that place tend to change over time to start rapping/singing about other things that keep people interested over longer periods of time. Don't get me wrong, I'm not at all down talking what you've written. It really is powerful and I hope you keep writing. What I'm trying to suggest is that maybe you can have the best of both worlds... Maybe you can channel the anger onto the page without needing to actually go through with it in reality. You can't lose that way I think. It means you can avoid a lot of the drama and getting into the kind of shit that can be limiting to what you want to do, and it also means that you'll have more to write about. I'm not good at writing so maybe I'm wrong here, but I think of the people I know who do write and the ones I've seen who do it well are the kinds who don't have to fight back. They're the ones who can take what they're going through, walk away, then go home and write or record it. They let it come out that way instead. It's less destructive to themselves and it's more potent in what comes through when they're writing. After a while the anger can move aside or change into something else which means there's more inspiration to tap into from other places. More to write about. More to express. And people like variety.
Good luck with everything mylifebelikee. You've got a way with words and I hope you post more up here when you write it. Do you record too?
I can do a bit of karaoke but I will say I'm not too bad at it.. as far as karaoke goes.
Well keep going with the writing. Looking forward to seeing more in future.
There seems to be quite a few musically inclined people on BITE BACK lately..
Yeah it's really been taking my mind off things once I get it down on paper. Haha I like to think I can sing, but who doesn't. I'm learning the acoustic :)
You're welcome mylifebelikee,
yeah having a creative outlet can be so rewarding. I definitely do think you've got a way with words, but even if you didn't it's not the most important thing. Everyone has to start from somewhere I guess. I've found it's the process of getting good at something which I enjoy more than just naturally being good at it from the get go.
Do you play any instruments or sing?
I never used to write. But I totally, agree, it really helps express things. I'm stoked you think I might have some sort of talent. Thanks so much for the long response too. And now that I've read your comment, I think I might have come across as being in many fights, totally not the case though. It's just an expression of the thoughts that go on inside my head when stuff happens, and the consequences, and so yeah I defiantly agree anger is not the way to do things, I don't want things to be like that. Nah, but I really want to, didn't think I was any good though. Thanks again flea
I agree! I love reading these posts! They remind me all the time to not ignore all the awesome little things that happen.
I agree completley with everything you said! In 15 and I travel for living, I circled Aus in the summer and played music the whole way around. It's possible :) I'll tell you this right now, the minute you leave school, you can hang around whatever people you want and you'll find those people who have the same interests in you and life is so much fun.
That sounds mad! I'm jealous haha. Yeah, that's the plan, finish school then live life :)
I can totally relate to everything that you have written (apart from the yr 10 stuff, im about to go into yr 12) so for that, your formal all i can say is DON'T STRESS ABOUT IT! it is your last year of freedom, basically. have fun and don't care what anyone else says!
I also would LOVE to go on a drive around Australia in a kombi. have been planning a trip for about 5 years now :D around the coast of Australia with my mates!
I hope that the rant helped !!
ps: I LOVE THE BREAKFAST CLUB :D
Yeah, totally know what you mean bout feeling empty- I get that sometimes too. I guess the good thing is you know its going to get better right?
Your adventure sounds amazing! Can I come on the Kombi trip too!? ha ha.
ps: How good is having a rant!
The pain and frustration that you must be feeling, it, it must be unbearable, but you're still up and kicking.
This girl, she must mean a lot to you, and you clearly still want to be apart of her life. Maybe the only way for it to change is instead of wanting things to go back to the way they once were, maybe want them to go to a place better than it was before. Talk to her, ask her why she hasn't talked to you in a while. Then really, really listen to her, then have your say.
If you tried to the best of your ability to repair this obviously meaningful relationship with this girl, and yet nothing else has changed. Probably the best thing to do for yourself, it try to let it go. Your friends could see that you were not happy, and they clearly care for you. Maybe in the future you'll meet someone new, or maybe this girl that you like will realise what she lost.
I hope it works out for you! Good luck (:
The Avengers was great! What is YOLO?
You Only Live Once :)
i think that u should forget about her. the reason why u haven't been as happy with any body else might be because u never really tried to be happy with another girls because u keep thinking that she is the only possible person that can make u happy, witch is not true because there are plenty more fish in the sea and many are probably better