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My Life
So, I grew up in a rough home, I was sexually abused by my brother and his friend who use to experiment with drugs and when my Dad left (9 years of age) my Mum started to drink... a lot. For years, all I can remember is waking up in the the middle of the night and finding Mum passed out, or absoloutly drunk, or vomiting in the bathroom - or not the bathroom, sometimes I though she was dead. There's two nights I'll never forget, the night my Mum attempted suicide by overdose, and the night that I woke up with a butcher knife on my bed. When I hit high school Mum had started to settle down a little, she got some counselling, but I was very confused. And I wanted nothing to do with her. I was not very popular in high school, and at the end of year eight I began to self harm, I had copied my friend. However, it was just a phase for her, self-harming began to help take away all the pain I had inside of me. I fell into a really large depression and began cutting everyday, I was addicted. If I couldn't cut, I'd lose it, at times I became psychotic. My first suicide attempt was January 2009, and that was the first of many. I was hospitalized and continued to be hospitalized about 6 times, they eventually told me that I should not come back as they could no longer help me, I just would not stop cutting. So, I was fourteen and had no where to go. My Mum did not know how to look after me properly, I was on strong anti depressants that really messed me around, I missed a lot of school because I was in and out of hospital so much and all I want for my life was to die. I was fourteen and I didnt want to make it to sixteen. I refused, my plan? Just keep cutting for a bit... the day before my sixteen birthday, I'll do it and I won't stuff it up this time. I think that I was caught just in time, I became involved with a christian community and they really helped me turn my life around. I do not have enough words or volcabulary to express how grateful I am for the support that I received and still am receiving within that community.
My life is so different, I'm 17 (yes I saw sixteen, and even seventeen! So exciting!) and I'm doing crazy things. I have the most beautiful oppurtunity to help other young women like myself to change their lives and reach their potential. I am in a mentoring position and I love to see others grow. I have had the oppurtunity to be in a community paper to share my story, and speak at all different sorts of events to share my story. I have huge plans for the future and I know that I will make it, if I have made it from where I was, nothing will stop me.
This is not to boast about how great I am, i just want to let young people know that if they're struggling with anything, it;'s all possible! No matter how hard it is... I just want to make a difference in this world and if encouraging youth to step out and stand up is how I do, then I will. I'm such a strong beleiver in changing teenagers reputation, I do not drink, I do not use drugs, I do not swear, I do not rebel against authority, I do not beleive in sex before marraige.... simply because adults expect us to be that way! Young people are so powerful, we just have no idea because we're only living to the expectation of those around us!
Thats all I have to say, be encouraged!
God Bless
Comments
- DJ Cheese Platter | Reply 5 December 2011, 7:03 PM
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Wow. What a powerful story! When I was reading the first half of that I couldn't possibly see how there would be a positive ending to it but there certainly was. That's really great to hear that you've not only managed to overcome those problems but also to help other people in those situations. I think that's very important. You should be really proud of yourself. Keep up with the writing too! What does it feel like when you're telling your story to other people?
- jellie94 13 December 2011, 2:30 PM
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When I share this, as hard as it is, all I can think about is how I might be effecting somebody else's life. My past/story may help someone with their future...
- abbeydawn | Reply 5 December 2011, 11:59 PM
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Your story is so inspiring. It truly shows that you should never give up and keep on getting through each day because it all gets better sooner or later. It's good to know that things turned around for you and I'm glad you are so string now and you know where you are headed. Thanks for sharing such an amazing story with us! Good luck with everything :)
- baby_gone | Reply 7 December 2011, 5:27 PM
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Wow! Wow! Wow! That is all that i can say about this! I can't express how much this story has touched me. I have also been through depression and have also cut myself.. pretty bad at tiems. I have watched others go through this and am still struggling with it some days! Your story has made me look at this a different way though. What i was going through was nothign compaired to you, and I am sorry for what you have been through. I believe that you are a strong individual and that you have grown so much in your life. I wish you the best of luck in your life and i hope that you contine to be strong and that you will continue to grow! :) xoxo
- seawave | Reply 7 December 2011, 9:35 PM
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What an inspiring story. Jelly you are an amazing and incredibly strong person. Thanks for sharing. I'll hold on to this and try to help make a difference too.
- Jaziey | Reply 8 December 2011, 10:01 AM
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You are an incredible person. Not only did you have the courage to speak about all the problems that you have overcome in your life but you have used your experiences to turn your life around and help others. I believe that is truly inspirational! Good luck with everything and thank you for sharing, I know you will help a lot of people understand that there is help out there and the can get through things just like you did. Thank you for believing in yourself and encouraging others to believe too! :)
- DJB2994 | Reply 11 December 2011, 10:36 AM
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Everyone has used a lot of words i was going to use, but Your story is turly inspiring and it shows that no matter how deep you dig yourself down there is always a ladder for you to climb out again, i am sorry about the past, i know i cant change it, but i wish the best for your future, and i am happy you have found a position you belong, your a inspiration and someone for many to look up too, you've made it further in your 17 years than many will ever travel in 60, this story truly is life changing and had really got me thinking, everyone has a place and sometimes it takes a lot of suffering to get there, you seem an amazing person and a story that i will always remember, as will many, I hope everything keeps running smoothly and again your an inspiration
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